Afraid of Heights

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Entirely produced by Omen. Features include Kendrick Lamar, J. Cole, Eric Roberson and more. Listed as top 10 mixtape of the year by 2DopeBoyz.
Mixed by Juro 'Mez' Davis and Chris 'D1' Dickerson.
Mastered by Juro 'Mez' Davis.

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released November 4, 2011

produced by Omen
additional instrumentation by Gavidia, Ron Gilmore, David Linaburg, Nate Jones and Aaron Richardson

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Track Name: Beyond
Beyond

verse 1

follow me down the yellow brick road
to the project steps in the ghetto
where my conscience slept in a death row
I was born here, left in a death hole
all of friends are gone in the wind
tossed in the pen, lost and they all
live in sin, robbing the kids
slaughtered, offing their limbs
darkness is calling all of our kin
but hell is just so handsome
it touch em' then romance em'
it bust em' down and ask em'
if they'd like some private dancing
so many times i've tried to run away
but I can't outrun hell its here to stay
wish I had wings on my back to fly away
had wings on my back to fly away

chorus

I just wanna fly away, far so far
I just wanna fly away, far so far
I just wanna fly away (just wanna fly away, just wanna fly away, just wanna fly away)
I just wanna fly away (just wanna fly away, just wanna fly away, just wanna fly away)

verse 2

living inside a broke household
mommy and my papa can't get along
so I live in a basement and sit alone
I hope y'all never see what I been shown
everyday, striking her face
fighting away
screams in the night and the day
Ike'ing her face
go and get her knife and her mace
sweet nine millimeter she be hiding in the safe
but she say he's so handsome
she love em' she romance em'
she bust em' down and ask em'
if he'd like some private dancing
so many times i've tried to run away
but I cant outrun hell its here to stay
wish I had wings on my back to fly away
had wings on my back to fly away

chorus

for the beat of the drum
i'd sleep on the sun
hold heat deep at the feet of the gun
low key creep with the reaper to numb
ya life and then i'd feast on the young
twice
let it leap from my tongue
i'm a writer no need for my lungs
for the Beatstreet and people in slums
I'ma go knee deep in the beat and beyond

In the beat and beyond
In the beat and beyond
In the beat and beyond
for the Beatstreet and the people in slums (2x)

chorus

I just wanna fly away
somebody help me find
some way to escape from the pain
I just wanna fly away
somebody help me find
some way to escape from the pain
I just wanna fly away
far far far far far
I just wanna fly away
far far far far far
Track Name: Window ft. Shalonda
Window

la la la, say
la la la ,say

chorus

As I look out the window
Ain't no telling what i'll see
As I look out the window
what does this world have for me?
As I look out the window
Will i see the sun shine?
As I look out the window
Will i see the clouds in the sky?

verse 1

Witness the transition from a man to king
nothing's been given to me
I have earned everything
I deserve much more
this what I worked for
wasn't settling for no 9 to 5 work force
and its a damn shame
you think that I don't see yo campaign
man I don't owe y'all a damn thang
some of em' mad cause I don't hang on the same corners
I got friends that can't wait to say I changed on em'
time is money and you steady tryna keep me in debt
acting like a Nike sponsor, tryna keep me in check
name the best of the best and I'm better than that
I'm the answers to the questions that have never been asked
You can love me like your favorite
you can hate me like a Laker
long as you know i'm a genius
you should call me Amadeus
mixed with some Ossie Davis
lyrically I'm a savior
made in God's image
so you could call me the greatest
disrespected, neglected
all of my faith been tested
never thought like a victim
I take my losses as lessons
hated all of my bosses
aggravated my teachers
cause they saw my potential
but never i would never reach it
man I hated school
I picked my major
but that ain't make me no major moves
and everyday was like a living hell
but still I made it, graduated
and I lived to tell
I look out the window and wonder
will I win or fail?

chorus

verse 2

All of my friends moved away
i'm left alone, wondering who's here?
my college years made me lose hair
was planning to move to New York
but I was too scared
was tired of telling my family
'just gimme two years'
cause two years turned to five
and five turned to ten
and pride wouldn't let me see
depression setting in
lock yo' self in a room
doing five beats a day
for seven summers
man this something
you could never stomach
bloggers coming at me
acting like they know the way
disrespect me and say
that I'm just my friend's protege
like I ain't been working for years on my own
writing rhymes, doing songs
making beats all at home
by my lonesome
my time is now thats irrelevant
how can somebody
named Omen be so heaven sent?
window of opportunity was always
draped and sheered
the story of the man
that forever perseveres

chorus

bridge

from the outside looking in
nothing is as it seems
I wake up everyday
and fight for my dreams
I dare you to walk a while
in my shoes to see
what i've endured
this is a song for
creators, the lovers
the painters, the dreamers
the crafters, the masters
the makers

never wanted anything more
never wanted anything more
never wanted anything more
never wanted anything more

never wanted anything more
Track Name: Answers ft. Ari Lourdes
Answers


Searching for you
Searching for you

For so many years
I been struggling
fighting this battle
searching out for my enemy
as he hides in the shadows
poison me, cloud my vision
can't keep my eyes on the sparrow
mama been telling me since
I was young that I was a pharaoh, but I
feel like slave, so isolated and caged
as I, feel up with rage
I'd rather pull out the gauge
I'm so, passive aggressive
wish I was half as expressive
as all of my peers
but i'm lost in my fear
oh lord
I'm sick of playing the victim
sick of blaming the system
sick of dreaming debating hoping
waiting and wishing
for things to change
waiting for perfect
perfect never came
me and my enemy the same
in the mirror

we all the same in the mirror
cant hide your pain in the mirror
enemy came in the mirror
and I was calling for help

chorus

Is there a God?
If there is, I'm calling
Searching for you (2x)

As I stare into this mirror
my eyes illuminated
cause for the first time
I see who i was truly hating
all of this time
you wasn't hiding from me
you was laughing in my face
what was i becoming?
I see the truth shown
I see the roof's gone
and I done learned that
what I reap, sewn
I see the wolf
inside the sheep's clothes
all of this time that I was
blaming her
blaming him
blame the Devil
blame my kin
all this time i'm
blaming them and
so easily never taking responsibility
looking inside my inner me
finally found the enemy
the mirror
looking inside the mirror
image is getting clearer
mental is getting purer
feel the change in my attitude
for everybody I blamed
now there is gratitude
loving what I see in this mirror
smiling back at you
that procrastination before
gave me battle wounds
but now
I'm back in tune

chorus

bridge

only I can stop my dreams
my only enemy is myself
I look to the sky and I scream
more than ever need God's help (2x)

My childhood was wholesome
but somehow became lonesome
and I was longing
for something more
but something more
don't just show up at ya door
didn't wanna hustle for it
my desire premature
but the struggle made me
desire more
till my desire
poured out my pores
and I was all for it
and I was asking God for help
God said I had the power
all within myself

Searching for you
Track Name: Stories
Stories

caught in the pain
everything to lose
everything to gain

chorus

caught in the pain
everything to lose
everything to gain
so confused
no one to blame
story of my life, life, life, life (2x)

stop comparing
but its so hard
when its all around me
and I still got no job
best friend a doctor
other friend a lawyer
other friend's famous
oh my god
and they all younger
did they just have more hunger?
is fate playing hide and seek?
sometimes I wonder
where the hell is that life?
what's affecting my flight?
where the hell is my wife?
or at least Mrs. Right
or at least for tonight
can I least take you home?
cause i need to vent on something
more than songs
I'm more than whats shown
more than whats known
this woe is me poetry
flows in my bones
recording alone at night
it seems my soul's on ice
I'm a man so
I'm s'posed to fight
Mr. Dreamer hope you're right

chorus

can't get respect from the bloggers
can't get respect from the labels
and my own city sleeping on me
now i'm really getting so unstable
gotta step it up another notch
though i got my eyes on the clock
never drank but i swear right now
man I need a shot of the scotch
need a little puff of the haze
just a li' something to blaze
hope won't work
so I need more for these uncomfortable days
oh wait now i'm on tour
and I think that might cure
or at least sideline
everything thus far i've endured
no more woe is me
these moments heaven sent
chasing my dreams
the longest i've ever ran
tell me why I still feel pain?
tell me why the shit don't change?
tryna make it to the top
but i stay stuck on a cliff I hang
thinking bout' click click bang
but I probably miss my aim
I done gave my whole life up
tell me are you not entertained?
can't even look to the sky
cause i got too much pride
wanna know the story of my life?
just take a look in my eyes

chorus

now whether i'm right or i'm wrong
this is my life
its gotta be known
hope you know more
with every song
so many stories, stories, stories (2x)
Track Name: The Look of Lust ft. Kendrick Lamar & Shalonda
Look of Lust

la da da...

the look of lust

pleasure is a must
im sleeping here with lust
scenes of ménages
with asian massages
sin is the scent of my apartment
she can feel the rhythm
as I give her my guitar licks
she never knew I was an artist
I play the instrument well in the dark lit room
please baby doll don't pause this groove
ever seen a flower in the darkness bloom?
I know ya never have love
and all we got is lust we don't have love
I think the song started in the bath tub
then the melody continued to a back rub
you told me your homegirl could play the sax love
well show me if she can
played my notes perfectly
your making me your fan
in between your smiles were the sounds of our whispers
as I'm looking down, such a bountiful picture
I look at her
then look at you
and both of you make such a beautiful muse
for this music
but this is not a Mozart movement
but baby girl keep your composure
I'm not done with composing
its the look of lust

The look of lust
is in your eyes
A look that you can't disguise

verse 2 (Kendrick Lamar)

Say she hate it when I'm super faded
loaded, only notice her body
rather her conversation
rushing, lusting
sexual favors when the hours chasing
midnight or 2pm
a vampire in Jordan laces
prey on the blood of the promiscuous
panties on the premises
pantry full of condoms
fuck yo consciente
lets get intimate
she say baby boy slow down
you know I move with diligence
you think that I'm a hoe now?
and strip me for my innocence
she was older, she was colder than the rest of ‘em
Lurking over my shoulder temptation getting the best of ‘em
So much, I never knew how to touch a real woman
‘Kendrick, I want you to make me feel something’
Pulled down my pants and then she glanced at me with a smirk
Repeatedly shook my hand and said what’s wrong? ‘Should I kiss it first?’
I can do that, I won’t complain
She said that ain’t a problem, I’m wet
But first you gotta fuck my brain like a surgeon
Get yo’ mental working like a 9-5 before we get it live and close the curtains
I thought massage is all I need now proceed if it’s worth it
Or leave if it’s urgent
For you to rendezvous I know your needs have a purpose
Cause I have feelings too and you have fillings
But that’s only in yo’ teeth when they hurting
I started laughing, she pulled my card like pitty-pat
Pitied the fool for any kitty kat
It’s the look of lust…

verse 3

Walking through the streets
I met a palm reader
She told me I was wise beyond my years
Says I been here before, well I guess
that I'm just here for more…
of the lust
Will she keep this on the hush?
I like the ones that never blush
Now you seduced by the serpent
Wine on your lips
I'm close enough to know
that that's as fine as it gets
I'm in too deep and i'm diving for dinner
She lets me know that she's a synchronized swimmer
blindfolded, heckling
You can't see her but I'm guessing
that she's got the look of lust…

chorus
Track Name: Fighting The Feeling
Fighting The Feeling

Nobody told me there'd be days
there'd be days like this (2x)

Would you believe me if I told you that I've never cheated?
Probably not, but I swear to you its no misleading
I got some thangs that I been dealing with
that make me question is my mindset still innocent?
She got my heart true
But She got my hormones
Imagine her screaming the sounds that a whore moans
Lord knows that i love her so
But it seems as time passes
I wonder mo'
What are these other women like?
Don't even wanna know em'
I just wanna spend the night
I know that that's immoral
But its what I feel, aight?
I'm trying to be truthful
but all you do is lie to me and say the feeling's mutual
holding on to pride
while i'm holding on to fear
that one day I may have to be unfaithful to my dear
and I can't fight the feeling now
don't even know what I'm feeling now

chorus

I'm fighting the feeling
everyday I'm on the verge and I can't seem to kick the urge
fighting the feeling
I can't speak what's on my mind, guess its been building over time
fighting the feeling
And now it's got me all confused
All I know is I don't wanna lose
Fighting the feeling
Fighting the feeling

I know I feel guilty
I kinda think I'm wrong
cause I just want you to stay
while i linger on
and that ain't fair at all
we in a gray area now
and I barely call
yet somehow you still got my soul
I bare it all
but you don't care it all
don't wanna hear my song
you heard it all along
I'm caught up in a 'Jonz in my Bonz'
got my 'Brown Sugar' going
Life kinda like D'Angelo's poems
but baby I'm still him
baby I'm still Damon
same ol' G
I'm just hoping you still patient
same ol' me
been the same since in the playpen
and I never change, I remain
until my day's end
I'm kinda paranoid
I don't trust someone
I been feeling some thangs I wanna run from
like something inside of my heart is undone
busy wondering where did this lust come from?

chorus

Nobody told me there'd be days
there'd be days like this
No

Now, how do I clear mixed emotions?
Can't go to mama now
I think I need some different coaching
Oh wait, too late see now she left me
That's probably cause I left her
Wonder should I text her
But I don't wanna stress her
but all the stress i'm feeling now
might leave me on a stretcher
Oh wait extra extra!
my best friend is a snake
spreading lies on the regular
I also lost my job
feel my heart I need a check-up
and now I need her more than ever
but on the flip side, still thinking horny pleasures
I swear that sometimes I'm so dumb
and I would love for my temptation here to go numb
Don't even drink, yet I'm so drunk
And this is weird though, I never ever acted on my impulses
I told you I never cheated but listen closely
Ya see, everything ain't always bout your actions
Sometimes you could have an inappropriate attraction

chorus
Track Name: Liberation
Liberation

verse 1

what a blessing to be inspired
visualizing and manifesting things I've desired
the most intelligent, intellectual never pseudo
my beats and rhymes
my own dynamic duo
I have em' bitter
have em' shiver
and have em' quiver
my destiny's to be fly
just call me caterpillar
a visionary, I've seen things that haven't happened
the quiet assassin, aquarius,
who started rapping
analyzing, deliberating
stayed up at night
questioning why I'm afraid of the heights
such a nice guy
maybe I was raised too polite
tell me how you so shy
but you blazing the mic
unexplainable, God gave me this
flame to ignite
such a long journey here
but I stayed on the hike
motivated by my team
told me dream, told me stop second guessing
a blessing when your friends are your best competition

Liberation...

verse 2

Everybody telling me I'm next
man my fans is the best psychics
tell your favorite rapper's better wear they best diapers
cause I'm here, I can smell your fear
Your whole career just turned to a puddle of tears
heard em' say I'm way too quiet to achieve my plans
If they only knew the loudest is the weakest man
name Omen, but DMoney be the alias
nobody's above me but trust I ain't atheist
I never worried bout' a hater,
I know I wasn't meant to fail
People really only hate you when they hate themselves
Got a lot of new friends and they fake as hell
They behind me but they tryna form a paper trail
I just wanna feel comfortable
I want a classy woman, where's my Claire Huxtable?
I'm feeling I can find my dream here tonight
That's not a train in the tunnel, where I see the light

Liberation

verse 3

Ya can't imagine what I've seen in my life
Through the madness
Jogging in the sands of sadness
I tell you I have dreamed of my night
Unlock the latches
I desire all of your access
I grew up round' gangbanging culture
drug dealers tryna get white like Sammy Sosa
thug killers tryna suffice and so they post up
Shaq style, raised in the jungle, amazon
So they act wild
Another black child, smoking on Black Mild
none of them know where they from
don't know our background
never made the Dean's List
but we young, black genius
beat tailor made, I'm my own seamstress
Can't ya see I'm finna blow like Aretha
Tear ya block up and I ain't screaming Jenga
Can't control my flow just call Fema
I told ya befo' I do it for the dreamers
Track Name: Lift Me
Lift Me

Chorus

Feel like I'm falling down
Feel like I'm falling down again
Somebody lift me, somebody lift me
Feel like I'm falling down
Feel like I'm falling down again
Somebody lift me, somebody lift me

[Verse 1: Omen]
As I sit in my room, these walls seem to cause me to pause
No fans, no applause, I'm lost
I fall...
to the bed in my draws
stinking, thinking some things that make me realize
I've gone way down, way down to the deep end
Reaching, with nothing to grab
These songs ain't pumping the gas
How long do it take for a dream to come true
man I swear
I'm just tossed as a crab in a bucket
But it ain't number six, feeling like bozo
But I keep trucking in slow-mo
Man life is a slowpoke, but I dare hold no grudges

Chorus

Feel like I'm falling down
Feel like I'm falling down again
Somebody lift me, somebody lift me
Feel like I'm falling down
Feel like I'm falling down again
Somebody lift me, somebody lift me

bridge

This feeling creeps like a thief
All he left was doubt and stole belief
My excuse is gone, I could use one now
Please don't bring me up just to bring me down

Verse 2

Is it stress or is it depression?
Cause it sure don't feel like a blessing
Don't feel like it came from the essence
Feel like somebody shot my intestines
Destined, for the sadness of the world and
My heart's been darkening
Lately, me and my girl been arguing, broke up
Now its worse than the arguments
How'd we get so far from the start of it?
So bad, now we might never talk again
Ask God, why my life being targeted?
Swear he replied like I ain't got no part in this
So I brought out the pen and escaped from the thoughts in my brain
Leave them tossed on the page with the strongest intention
All day, I done fought in a rage, feeling lost in a cage
And I'm caught in suspension, so tired of this roller coaster
One minute I'm cool, next minute I'm close to
tears
I bet regret is coming to get me
A cellmate of sorrow, somebody lift me

I'm falling down again
Track Name: Numb ft. Eric Roberson
Numb

verse 1

see the same cats in the Chi
everyday passing me by
ask for a little change, while they smirk
and they just laugh on the side
y'all don't start me crying
God will you start replying
cause as soon as exit our mother's womb
then we started dying
so is life one big joke
with a heckler named hope?
With a gesture to perplex us
full of snide rimshot notes
sure seem that way to me
with a spotlight on thee
walked in late to the show and
I'm stuck with a front row seat
use money just to get high
use money just to get drunk?
know it seems that way but
really use money just to get numb

chorus

from the pain, across the game
the loss, the drain
the cost, the gain
of this
life, often dismissed
as nothing more than a crumb
Lord, this life is no fun
cause I am just a bum
forever shunned
thumbed, over and over
just a crumb, a bum

verse 2

see me lost and i'm starving
see me toss through the garbage
see me stumble through the streets
with a beep-beep launched from the car horn
I get kicked to the curb
shot with an angry word
cops on the block wanna lock me
scream, but I can't be heard
so I just cry inside
might as well climb the sky
cause I die every winter time
when the Chitown climate dives
all I got left is faith
all I got left is hate
all I got left to say
no wait, let me please explain
please don't roll yo eyes
please don't walk on by
wasn't always a bum
why's this world so numb?

chorus

bridge

I've dreamed of what its like to dream
I've been loyal to life but its not to me
I thought life was my most cherished thing
But now i see life, gave up on me
So now I seek revenge

verse 3

mind state is now a shelter for cynicism
no amount of morphine
no kind of penicillin
could heal em'
cause this feeling I'm feeling
is feeling like I'm bitten with venom
I'm filled with trigger intentions
to (murder)
everything that I believed
everything that I conceived as the truth
memories been bereaved
under siege from my youth
I don't blink
I don't think
I just bleed through the juice of my drank
confused and I'm blank
so I'm choosing the plank
as I walk to the sky
life never responds
hope death will reply
life never responds
hope death will reply

I'm feeling numb

I bet you death will reply
life never responded to me why try
Track Name: Tell Me Where To Start
Tell Me Where To Start


Yeah, tell me where to start, baby
Tell me where to start baby
And you know I won't stop
Tell me where to start baby

[Verse 1]
I bring the reel (real) like cinemas
my bedroom had every color united
you could call it Beneton
I'm like a renaissance lover
Baby and I'm charming
Come here girl, be my Jane, I could be your Tarzan
Tell me girl, is you feeling me?
Tell me please, baby, how did you get in them jeans?
You're talented, I'm striking fire like a matchbox
And now you got my whole back filled with scratch marks
I never slack off, matter of fact, baby doll pull my slacks off
And take off your black bra
You're so in the mood, I'm so feeling you
Heat of the moment, ain't no telling what we finna do

[Hook]
Tell me where to start baby
And you know I won't stop, won't stop
Just tell me where to start baby, and I won't stop
Just tell me where to start baby, and I won't stop, won't stop
Just tell me where to start baby
I won't stop

verse 2

I say mayne, I'm all over that
And now she all pouring sweat
She throw it back like a hike to a quarterback
Passionate in the bed, she acting ignorant
She getting tapped like a package of cigarettes
She was a tri-stater, She had some fly flavor
She whispered in my ear I'm better than her vibrator
I tell her, "Please, tell me something that I don't know"
Cause I go hard, I ain't never been "so so"
I mean I'm so pro
She dripping like soul glow
She's a dirty fighter, just gave me a low blow
I told you girl I bring the real
Baby doll, tell me how you feel

Hook

bridge

Now see, I'm feeling you, I know you're feeling me
So let's get in the mood, and let's get in them sheets
Now see, I'm feeling you, I know you're feeling me
So let's get in the mood, and let's get in them sheets

Verse 3

Yeah, I'm like 6'4", I make ya clit roar
My name is Omen, in my pants, I got my pitchfork
I'm bout to teach a couple things like a mentor
And if my phone ring, know I'm pressing ignore
I'm here to explore, I'm here to pledge allegiance
Your pussycat deserve praise like it's ancient Egypt
Ha, I told you girl I bring the real
Baby doll, tell me how you feel
Track Name: Lovely Minutes
Lovely Minutes

verse 1

When you’re alone, lying in bed
I wonder what goes, inside of your head
Or when you awake, and fold your spread
Then iron your clothes, and toast your bread
What thoughts occur, what pictures come?
You cleaned your plate, ya scraped the crumbs
You grab your coat, you grab your phone
You head to work and start to zone
Tell me where does your mind go?
What do you see through the blindfold?
Is it your future, is it your past?
Does it make you stress, does it make you laugh?
You sit at your desk, you day dream
But tell me do you see the same things?
The times pass, the days change
And all this time I’m still wondering

Chorus

Is it me, is it me, in the feelings that you holding?
Is it me that you think of when you’re glowing?

Is it me, is it me, in the feelings that you holding?
Is it me, in between all your moments?

verse 2

You’re more than the one, I don’t believe in list
Don’t care how the world’s perceiving this
These hurricanes, catastrophes,
Don’t mean a thing when you’re my fantasy
Ya help to change my reality
Your voice is such a beautiful sight to see
I know it’s cheesy, but please believe me
No way imagination would deceive me
Talk to me long, talk to me right
Mama mad you don’t talk how she like
But she don’t know you quite like I do
Other boys call but you be lying to em'
You see your phone flash line two
And once again, I have found you
The times pass, the days change
And all this time I’m just wondering.
Track Name: Mama Told Me ft. J. Cole
Mama Told Me

verse 1

Tryna follow my intuition as I’m on this million dollar mission
Mama told me I was special, thank God I listened
My environment never let me be a pretender
Similar interest with them dope boys but I was different
The hoop dreaming lonely child
hung around, Hyde Park, Chatham and the Stony Isle
Pimps, players, gang wars, living in a lonely town
Who can I relate to?
Feeling like the Golden child, Chi city culture
Full of Pain, full of soul singers
Dead bodies in our rivers but their souls linger
A young black man living with unrealistic dreams
But luckily I’ve seen some unrealistic things
A child from the city took the good route
Always fit in and always stood out, complex
Layered, rather show you than say it
Though I know my greatness is always understated
Mama working 12 hours days on her feet
Coming home cooking dinner, made her son wanna weep
My step father working while I’m zoning to beats
Meanwhile my biological is roaming the streets
Tryna be an entertainer, but my heart held love no anger
He out there tryna be a singer
I guess its just the life I was made for

chorus

Mama told me I was special
Mama told me I was special
Mama told me I was special
Gotta love her for that (yeah) (2x)

verse 2 (J. Cole)

Yeah, truly yours, J. Cole
My mama could've been a movie star
Ya know like Judy Garland
I went to st johns I could've went to Juliard
Cause my beautiful mind mixed with my musical bond
Deep as a funeral line, dawg, I get it from my mama
I used to be embarrassed getting picked up in that honda
Thought my niggas might play me if they found out that my mama was a white lady
So like gravy had to cover that
Plus my older brother black but he look white
In an all black school, picture what that look like
No wonder he was under-achieving not believing' in himself
Coming home just be keeping to himself
Looking back through the silence, he was screaming out for help
Maybe this verse can find the words to get the demons out himself
So yeah, I'm exercising
Right now my record climbing, I'm sort of a stair master
Niggas got there faster, I took the long route, I never been a scared rapper
Boy this aint fear factor, ay tell me can you hear the wrath spillin out these paragraphs
Made the world clear a path
Bet I'll be on top from now till the hereafter
I'm special, mama told me I was special
Mama told me I was special
Know I love her for that

chorus

I'm special, mama told me I was special
Mama told me I was special
Know I love her for that

That's right I'm special
Mama told me I was special
Mama told me I was special
Know I love her for that
Know I love her for that

verse 3

Tell me, what's the marketing plan for realness
What's the demographic target audience for brilliance
What's the first week numbers for my inspiration
Who can a&r this passion and this dedication
name Omen, this aint a verse, its a revelation
We need some more Sanaa Lathan's in our population
I'm meeting women I would never date
The kind that say they want a marriage but they really want a wedding day
I'm seeing groupies tryna act like they don't notice me
But the writings on the wall call it hoetry
Desire calls but that's not what my focus be
Music's forever my lady unlike Jodeci
See when a leaders speaking you should simply follow suit
I stay in the zone like it's college hoops, let me show you how to shoot
You know aim for the goal, these are just the chronicles
They calling me the honorable, though I am not no muslim
I'm finna blow like woodwinds, tricky like a good sin
I'm something you've mistooken, mistaked him for fakeness
Haters don't know what you facing
Oh goodness, oh gracious
They looking at greatness

chorus
Track Name: Forever (Airborne)
Will I ever be, all that I say?
Will I ever see, all that I claim?
Will I ever show, all that I know?
Lord will I grow?
Lord will I know?

I move
for the love of the people
Wit' a flow that a kill the club like E2
No disrespect intended
sweater's vintage, holla back
blessed ridiculous
check's with interest
gotta stack
Mo' dollas
Rhode scholar
4.0 flow
I got mo' soul than old timers
I been scheming since I was breathing
I been dreaming since I was semen
Been a fiend since I was teething
Started with the failure for dreams
I had with Spalding
Landed rock bottom
but still feel like i'm falling
It's never me but all my peers be ballin'
Why it seem like all of my enemies get applauded?
I'm better than the veterans
I'm better than you ever been
Don't even mention no rookies
No sweat I'm so ahead of them
Catch me in that Letterman
With Dopart lettering
etch me as heaven sent
I boguard settling
I take mine
I created my own lane
through the grape vine
I'm creating my own change
I done lost everything in my life
only thing left to do is to gain
through the strife
though the pain like a knife
I lost my hoop dreams
Thinking that i'm bi-polar
filled with mood swings
I done lost my job
I done lost my squad
I done lost my girl
i done lost my world
All I got left is my art and my goals
and my heart somewhere lost in the dark
and its cold
Raised in a set full of sharks in the Go'
Where the sparks finna blow
and the narcs wanna roll
They sharpening blow
Now i'm hearing shots targeting O'
you wanna send shots?
Well I can be your basket case
please don't awaken the beast
I've cast away
He'll smash your face
Mayne, I aint never had a plan B
But you better get you a plan Z
You understand me?
A vigilante
I'm upping the ante
Mind like an antique
And all of this time
I was just delayed
because I was afraid
till the only thing flowing through my veins
was the pain
Afraid of my failure
Afraid of success
But don't pray for me
Just pray for the rest.

Dreamville.

Afraid of Heights.

Am I free?
Track Name: (Bonus) Ceremony
Ceremony

verse 1

The neighborhood ball player
Quiet was shy around them girls
Who knew that he would fly around the world
I never crawled for nobody
see I did a lot of baby steppin
I came a long way from 87th
I'm with some pretty girls chilling out
in Sweden, out in Paris
Thinking, do I deserve all of these blessings I inherit?
I’ve seen a lot in my life
the kind of things make you rewind twice
Now its lime light but wait you see something is missing
Let me tell you bout' this juxtaposition
I’m on tour chillin, chiefing with ?
My rent due back home, I had to
call my mama i guarantee this changes your perception
See yall ain’t really got a clue fans coming to my shows with more money than i do
And it really gets no realer than that
Gotta know i’m fearless now if i’m giving you that

Chorus
I need a ceremony
I need a ceremony
cause I done came a long way
With even further to go but before i finish a show
I think i need a ceremony, i need a ceremony
Cause I done came a long way
But even further to go but before i finish a show

verse 2

Somebody tell me what’s confidence without belief?
What’s a city full of gangs left without a chief?
thanking God I made it this far I have overcome the undertaking
Came through the storm but another one's awaiting
Under dog love from fans hoping they ain’ t traitors
Turn around a year from now with comments full of hatred
I’ve seen it happen before so if i got it face it
I’m ready I’m still looking for miss right
Or at least miss night for the right
Nobody knows what this life is like
Family functions friends weddings are sacrificed
All just to write and recite some words on the mic
But this is all i got and this is all I have
I let my work and my craft speak on my behalf
A Southside Chi-City boy, its my testimony
I think it’s time we had a ceremony,

I need a ceremony
Hey hey cause i done came a long way
But even further to go but before i finish a show
I think i need a ceremony